Although I haven't spent a whole lot of time with cloth in the past weeks, I've spent a whole lot of time with my thoughts. I spent a lot of time looking around the web, but not a lot of time talking about any of it. I spent more effort to catch my impressions on paper. I asked myself whether or not to keep going with a lot of the online presence. I tried to understand why I do it. I tried again to understand attribution and inspiration and the sameness that comes from association. I wondered a lot about art and galleries and the drive toward fame and formalized presentation. I thought about art as business and how weird that is really.
But mostly I thought about art as self, and what you become in the process of going and choosing and revealing or not. So I just thought a lot, I guess. I let the thoughts float without judgement.
The sketch above is a combination of two symbols , the star which I use to express the wish which really has never been a want, but a vision that might redefine what is. And the basket, my symbol for some kind of timeless self. Here they intertwine, get woven together. Self holds wish. Wish supports self. The form excites me because it is less static.
I will be going forward with What If Diaries 2. I've pushed it back a bit. I've just changed my mind about how it might work. What it might be. I want to UnDo the same old thing. I hope to open Registration on March 1.
The walls in this room that we are heating are plaster. Tacking things up on them is not really possible. The magic cloth is nailed up there for a while now. I pinned some blank cloth up there as a temporary What If (?) wall. Because I like to be surrounded by little experiments while I am working on a big cloth. It helps me make distractions into more meaningful small journeys.
Sometimes a large cloth can inspire a small cloth. Sometimes it is the other way around. Some times a little trial for a small thought or question can turn into a work all by itself. Or become part of a larger work. Sometimes I just need a break. Whatever it is or however it might happen is all part of it. But having the chaos visible helps me to see the connections of how it goes. Or how it might go.
So this little cloth that I started in Sun Moon Stars and worked on a bit in Diaries, and was calling How One Heart might affect Another (and still am) even though it started out as a little solstice cloth.... well I just felt like stitching on it today. To re-experiment with what I call the coma effect on a smaller cloth (Coma being one of my larger ones that hangs on the other wall here). And well it is about a shift in perception and it so much related to a sense of safety or not, I just thought it was good for me to think about that today. Before I sit with HOME tonight. Side trips can still get you where you might be thinking of going.
I have an awful lot of words lately. I wonder why that is.
I will be opening up the shop in a week or so, not sure if there will be much new work for sale, but the work on your own online classes will be available again. Since some of you were asking. I also hope to finish updating my links page, PlaceKeeper, and it will pop back up soon. As always, thanks for your continued patience with my many moods. There will be no shortage of them.