Nothing much has gone on here the past few days. Thanksgiving was quiet and simple. Mom and me. And the Man who decided to sleep most of the day. And I am just so focused on those simple days. I am caught in small moments. Trying to find out why I see a kind of beautiful sadness in simple things. Not the kind of sadness that hurts. The kind that contains a sort of numbness. But not the kind of numbness that is unfeeling. The kind that seems to freeze time. The kind that softens edges. Maybe just the absense of the harsh frivolity that seems to surround us at this time of year. The kind that comes from the TV and well, just about every kind of media.
I am just doing. Doing little things. Noticing them in isolation. Marveling in that. Wondering whether sharing them changes them somehow. Just wondering. I think the quality I find in some of the more primitive objects and cloth that I have around me is something to do with that sweet sadness, that numbness. There is some memory of honest making. Hard to describe really. Perhaps just the making of something humble, from not much really. Just something simple. Motivated by giving. Some little things that might be enough to express that.
So I am feeling a bit sad today. But it's not the kind to be bothered by. It is the kind I learn from.