i think it was around 7AM. around then. that it started to snow again, even though the weather report said mostly cloudy today. now the sun is out and they say tomorrow we will have an ice storm. and i have no idea but this has me thinking about they. and me. and why everyone is always quoting them to express their own experience...trying to find symbols to use in their work to give it "personal" meaning. listening to the weather to see what it might be like outside. without going out to find out. going to the doctor to see if they feel all right. and feeling sick because they should.
i can't explain why i am rambling so. i just wonder what's wrong with your own words, your own stuff to express who you are. where is the magic in the symbol if it is not connected to you? anyway, i just started a little winter cloth and right in the middle of it i sensed a warmth that has not been predicted in the weather report. i sense it is coming from inside me. or perhaps from this faded scrap that used to be quite intensely red and because i remember that. finding true expression is trusting yourself and redefining what they say..
i think i will call this one deconstructing january.
