It's difficult to be open.
It might seem embarrassing.
To say what you are thinking. Without manipulations. Or agenda. Gosh it's even difficult to catch that yourself. I sat here before dawn. With coffee and my phone. I was going to check the news. But instead I sat here waiting for something to happen. The sun rose. I took a picture. I was astonished that I had not noticed the vibration in the reflection until after I took the photo. Was I really looking? Thinking? What is thinking? What am I thinking?
I hope you won't mind my rambling. I record and listen to myself. It is always surprising and refreshing, especially when my intention is not to share it, but simply to get the thought out. I talk to myself as if I am someone else, as if to try explaining. This helps me. Not to be smart but to get the thought out.
This is a jumble but I've come away with some personal clarity.